I'm not entirely sure what to say right now. I was feeling so unmotivated and unsure if I should even write this, but somehow, here we are.

2024 felt like a messy year for me, filled with countless changes and overwhelming thoughts. It was a stressful time, but I believe I discovered a new path for myself and gained valuable insights about life.

first part of the year

During this period, I found myself overthinking and questioning my abilities, skills, and everything about myself. I couldn’t help but compare myself to my friends, not just in terms of money and career but also in aspects like relationships, appearance, health, and more.

Additionally, I ended my relationship with my best friend during that time. Our relationship was so special that I couldn’t imagine anyone else being as close as we were. Honestly, it was mostly my fault that the relationship ended and I couldn’t keep my promise. At first, I couldn't believe it was true and struggled to accept it. But now, in another sky, I always hope you are always happy.

But honestly, I didn’t do anything to move on at that time. I just went to work and came back home, living like someone much older. I didn’t go anywhere; I stayed home and played video games. I didn’t even know where to go in the evenings or on weekends. Compared to before, I used to be three to four times busier than I am now. Back then, I might not have always known where to go on the weekends, but I always knew who I would go with. Doing anything alone for a long time makes me feel more depressed than ever.

However, during this time, I had the chance to visit Hue, Binh Thuan, and Vung Tau with my brother and friends. It was the one bright spot in the first half of 2024.

the rest of the year

After a long journey of studying, I finally earned my AWS certification. To be honest, I started preparing for it during Lunar New Year 2024, but it took quite a while because, in the beginning, I spent a lot of time without making much progress.

I feel like I learned more in the month leading up to the certification exam than I did in the first six months. When I finally earned the certificate, it felt surprisingly easy for me. I had been really looking forward to achieving it, but once I did, I felt disappointed, there wasn’t much to feel proud of. Now, I’m unsure of what to study or pursue next.

I started building websites and blogging. Actually I was just going to blog about technical stuff. and will not share about my life here, but like every year I will look back on the year but now I don't know who to share with. that's why I write it here.

After all this time, I finally sat down and reflected on everything. I realized I still have family, friends, and people who need me. My life isn’t as empty as I once thought it was. I think it’s important to appreciate what I have now and build from there. I’ve made a schedule for myself, outlining the steps I need to take to achieve my goals, and so far, it’s been moving in the direction I want it to.

I learned a lot on Udemy and applied it to my work and coding. and I realized that learning is important in the process, not in the result. and maybe end 2024 with a trip with friends to Kanthor.

Conclusion

it's the end of 2024, I sit back and set some plans I will complete in 2025. and as a man should, I just want to share it when I finish or not share at all.

hope everyone will be better every day and me too. Happy New Year 2025 and see you again.